September 30th: Shabbat Teshuvah
THIS WEEK IN THE TORAH
Rabbi David E. Ostrich
The following is Rabbi Ostrich’s Erev Rosh Hashanah D’var Torah.
In the ritual of putting on Tefillin, as you wrap the leather strap as a sign around your arm, it is traditional to recite a verse from Psalm 145--familiar to many of us as part of Ashray:
“You open Your hand to satisfy every living thing.”
Sometimes, when I recite this verse, I think of it in terms of God’s hand. The verse prays that the God will open the Divine Hand and bestow upon us the blessings we need.
”Please open Your Hand to satisfy our needs.”
Other times, I think of Rabbi Shefa Gold’s interpretative translation--that turns the verse into a yearning for the ability to be grateful:
“You open Your Hand; I open my heart to this abundance,
And all life, all will is satisfied.”
Sometimes, at moments of dissatisfaction--of personal troubles and distress, the prayer becomes more intense--more a sermon to myself.
“Please, O Lord, help me to look beyond my difficulties and perceive the good things in my life. Help me please not to be overwhelmed with the imperfections which plague me.”
Recently the verse took a different turn. I was in the hospital after my knee replacement, confined to bed and with an IV line in my hand. When I began my morning prayers and started to wrap my Tefillin’s leather strap around my arm, I realized that my normal wrap would not work properly. I would have to work around the IV, and the wrapping pattern would not be quite right. So, when I prayed, “You open Your hand to satisfy every living thing,” a little inner voice provided a kind of commentary: “I guess, O Lord, today You might have to be satisfied with my less than idea Tefillin technique. I’ll do the best I can, but please accept my adapted devotion.”
Then, to my surprise, there was a response. It could have been my inner sarcasm or perhaps my conscience, or it could have been what the ancient Rabbis called a Bat Kol, a voice from heaven. In any event, the inner voice said, “David, God has long been accustomed to being satisfied with less than the ideal from you. This is nothing new.”
I do not think that I am unusual in this regard. God is accustomed to all of our inadequacies—loving and gracing us despite them. This does not mean that our sins are okay. God still hopes that we will repent and improve, but our Tradition is clear: God’s love is embracing and overflowing. As the Psalmist declares: “Give thanks to the Lord Who is good; Whose lovingkindness is eternal!”
This dynamic of tolerance and hope is expressed in a number of places in our Scripture and liturgy.
We can begin with the Tzitzit paragraph of our Shema. Remember the purpose of the Tzitzit: “They shall be tzitzit for you so that when you look at them, you will remember all the mitzvot of the Lord and do them—so you will not go about after your own heart and your own eyes after which you used to go wantonly astray.” The Torah assumes that we all have baggage--indiscretions and mistakes and moral failures. We all have them, but God is hopeful that our sins, misdeeds, and transgressions will be object lessons in what not to do again--that they will inspire us to improve.
There is also this passage from the Yom Kippur liturgy that speaks of God’s relentless tolerance, love, and hope for us. God is described as “the Ruler Whose forgiving love annuls our trespasses and the trespasses of the House of Israel year after year after year...”
It is a continual process--one in which we and God are engaged every single day. Life is hard, and temptation is tempting. We are created with great potential but with significant weaknesses and short-sightedness. God understands us because God created us, and God does not expect perfection. What God hopes for is improvement and better choices; God knows that they are within our power.
There is also this passage from Un’taneh Tokef. Lest we think that God is not paying close attention, we are reminded: “Are not all things known to You, both the mysteries of eternity and the dark secrets of all that live? You search the inmost chambers of the heart, and probe the deep recesses of the soul. Nothing is concealed from Your sight.”
There is no hiding from God--and God’s hopes for us. God knows us intimately, deeply, and God has an appreciation for all of the challenges we face and all the little victories we manage to achieve. God’s appreciation for us is profound--and so, therefore, is God’s pride, disappointment, and hope. God is with us in every moment.
The lessons of the High Holy Days are twofold. God loves us and will forgive us, but God also hopes for our repentance--for our improvement. Like a parent loving a child, God wants the best for us, and God prays that we will do better.
We are Your people; You are our Ruler.
We are Your children; You are our Parent.
We are Your possession; You are our Portion.
We are Your flock; You are our Shepherd.
We are Your vineyard; You are our Keeper.
We are Your beloved; You are our Friend.